Bye Joker Mediocre

Don't know what's with rainy early mornings but it suddenly made me steer away from the dreamy post I was about to make.

Let me just face harsh reality at the moment.
I'm treating this life as a joke --not really living the way I'm meant to live.

I know I am not very old but I feel like I have had wasted gazillion opportunities and seconds in this meaningless life (er, sorry for the adjective, just finished reading Ecclesiastes); that today I have so little time to reach so lofty heights. Being a big dreamer who exerts little effort is not a very good job description. I guess I should change it to: big dreamer who puts her back into it. (yeah, that's more like it).

And I pray for God's anointing! (see Ptr. Steven Furtick's blog post about anointing). My scatter-brain-dreamy-self is too old in its habit and I know that if God's power is not present, I cannot succeed --in my academics, in my journey towards my artist's dream, in this very life. I also pray that as I put my back into this life he gave, I am fitting my plans into his.

"Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with all your might, for in the realm of the dead, where you are going, there is neither working nor planning nor knowledge nor wisdom. " - Ecclesiastes 9:10, Today's New International Version