Knowing

I have been confused with this little thing. The possibility of the existence of  a  person so intelligent, so voracious a reader that he had read all the books; heard all the amazing sermons; been through all the religious schools and yet lack discernment of the ways of the Lord. That one may be "wise and prudent" without having true wisdom. I've been asking this for the longest time, what is lacking? lest under some circumstances i fall on the same trap. 

I can't remember how many times I told myself "Maybe i will understand this someday." Oswald Chambers said

Thank You, Lord!

(Reflections from The Place of Ministry by Oswald Chambers in Utmost for his Highest)

My place of ministry is here in the last moments of my life as an undergraduate student. It is the valley I must live in, and where I must live out the power of Christ. No ministry or service should separate me from Jesus, from knowing Him. If this ministry/hardship/problem/war, whatever it’s supposed to be called is getting between me and my Jesus, this I have to do: bring it in the presence of Christ. I really don't know how. To live supernaturally in the mundane-ness of life, i don't know how, but i operate in grace. I pray that in this ministry I glorify Christ. As quiet as I am in walking in the valley, his quiet and gentle love comforts me.

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